12 Weeks

I don’t want to jinx it…but I haven’t thrown up since Monday.

I think most people (who haven’t lived the reality of pregnancy, or at least this particular version of the reality) have this “awww it’s so wonderful…look at the cute baby bump” etc. etc. perception. Even though I have a close friend who was sick her entire pregnancy, I STILL thought I’d feel like “ohhh so wonderful,” even if I was super sick. The reality is- fuck no, you don’t. Puking every day is not fun no matter how excited and happy you are to be a mommy-to-be. Every woman who deals with morning sickness deserves a fricken medal. Period.

Now that that rant is over…this week was pretty good! Monday was an all-day conference day at work. I woke up 30 minutes early to give myself ample puking time and it proved to be needed. I felt pretty bad the whole day BUT something magical has happened since… I think, dare I say it, the morning sickness might be coming to an end. I’ve been feeling pretty good since Monday. I’m feeling way less sick and I’m starting to get a little more energy back. Each day I feel better and better. Saturday I felt amazing. We went to breakfast, and then shopping. I feel human again, which is promising!

How far along?
12 weeks

Total weight gain:
Still the 2lbs.

How big is baby?
Plum-sized.

How I’m feeling:
Great finally. Woohoo! Though, I am getting what (through my extensive online research) seems to be sciatic pain, at night. By 8:00pm walking kills me. My lower back and legs hurt BUT, believe me, I’ll take a nighttime backache over vomiting, any day.

Maternity clothes?
Same as last week: a mix of both regular and maternity clothes. While I am a huge proponent of maternity pants…I’m not so crazy about the swimsuit selection. We planned our spring break babymoon trip to Maui and I’m seriously dreading maternity swimsuits right now.

Sleep:
I’ve been waking up a ton in the middle of the night from weird dreams and the need to pee all-the-freaking-time.

Best moment this week:
Saturday, realizing I actually felt REALLY good for the first time in ohhhh 7 weeks! I said to Dave it was like that burst of energy when you start to feel better after having a really bad cold or flu…only you had the flu for 2 months so it’s magnified by like 1,000,000. Things are lookin’ up!

Food cravings:
French fries…I’ve become a Seattle area French fry connoisseur.
I also caved and ate a steak sandwich today. So much goodness and so little guilt (sorry PETA).
I know, I know, my eating habits are shit right now…I do eat a lot fruits and veggies too! Organic ones at that!…no pesticides for this baby…only an endless supply of processed cheese. Nothin’ but the best! But seriously, lets put this in perspective here: at least I’m not doing crack or something.  

Symptoms:
Still the boob stabbing and I look fat in the tummy.

Feeling toward Pregnancy:
I’m feeling more excited now that I don’t feel like death…I really hope I’m not jinxing this!

What I miss:
Still want that veggies bennie!

What I am looking forward to:
Being able to tell everyone in a couple of weeks and our next appointment.